“When I was studying philosophy my teacher told me that it’s okay to feel like the people you’re closest to aren’t alive anymore. Sometimes that is the best company to keep. It’s about the people that pondered the same questions as you did, and had the same sort of life mentality as you. I was upset and inspired by that premise.”
Gods & Monsters
In the land of Gods and Monsters,
I was an angel living in the garden of evil,
Screwed up, scared, doing anything that I needed,
Shining like a fiery beacon.
You got that medicine I need,
Fame, liquor, love, give it to me slowly.
Put your hands on my waist, do it softly,
Me and God, we don’t get along,
So now I sing,
No one’s gonna take my soul away,
I’m living like Jim Morrison,
Headed towards a fucked up holiday,
Motel sprees, sprees and I’m singing,
“Fuck yeah, give it to me,”
“This is Heaven, what I truly want.”
It’s innocence lost,
Innocence lost.
In the land of Gods and Monsters,
I was an angel looking to get fucked hard.
Like a groupie incognito, posing as a real singer,
Life imitates art.
You got that medicine I need,
Dope, shoot it up, straight to the heart, please,
I don’t really wanna know what’s good for me,
God’s dead, I said, “Baby, that’s alright with me.”
No one’s gonna take my soul away,
I’m living like Jim Morrison,
Headed towards a fucked up holiday,
Motel sprees, sprees and I’m singing,
“Fuck yeah, give it to me,”
“This is Heaven, what I truly want.”
It’s innocence lost,
Innocence lost.
When you talk, it’s like a movie,
And you’re making me crazy,
‘Cause life imitates art.
If I get a little prettier, can I be your baby?
You tell me, “Life isn’t that hard.”
No one’s gonna take my soul away,
I’m living like Jim Morrison,
Headed towards a fucked up holiday,
Motel sprees, sprees and I’m singing,
“Fuck yeah, give it to me,”
“This is Heaven, what I truly want.”
It’s innocence lost,
Innocence lost.
“I majored in metaphysics in college, that’s what I got my degree in. And the reason I chose that was because the Jesuits who were teaching that subject, they weren’t just theologians, they also had backgrounds in science. Obviously the quest for peace, the quest for knowledge of something bigger is… that’s the end game. That’s what I’m really interested in.”
Heroin
Topanga’s hot tonight, the city by the bay,
Has movie stars and liquor stores and soft decay.
The rumbling from distant shores sends me to sleep, but,
The facts of life can sometimes make it hard to dream.
Life rocked me like Mötley,
Grabbed me by the ribbons in my hair.
Life rocked me ultra-softly,
Like the heavy metal that you wear.
I’m flying to the moon again,
Dreaming about heroin,
How it gave you everything and took your life away.
I put you on an aeroplane,
Destined for a foreign land.
I hoped that you’d come back again,
And tell me everything’s okay.
Topanga’s hot today, Manson’s in the air,
And all my friends have gone, ’cause they still feel him here.
I want to leave, I’ll probably stay another year,
It’s hard to leave when absolutely nothing’s clear.
Life rocked me like Mötley,
Bad beginnin’ to my new year.
Life rocked me ultra-softly,
Like the heavy metal that you hear.
I’m flyin’ to the moon again,
Dreaming about heroin,
And how it gave you everything and took your life away.
I put you on the aeroplane,
Destined for a foreign land.
I thought that you’d come back again,
To tell me everything’s okay.
Winter in the city,
Something ’bout this weather made these kids go crazy,
(It’s hot!) Even for February,
Something ’bout this sun has made these kids get scary.
Ohh! Writing in blood on my walls and shit,
Like, ah, oh my God,
Jumping off from the walls into the docks and shit,
Oh, ho-ho-ho! I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t sick of it.
I’m flying to the moon again,
Dreaming about marzipan,
Taking all my medicine to take my thoughts away.
I’m getting on that aeroplane,
Leaving my old man again.
I hope that I come back one day,
To tell you that I really changed.
Something ’bout the city,
Don’t know what it is, it makes my head get crazy,
Ohh! Makes me feel like I can change,
Oh, ho-ho-ho! All of my evil ways and shit.
I can’t run anymore,
I fall before you.
Here I am,
I have nothing left.
Though I’ve tried to forget,
you’re all that I am.
Take me home.
I’m through fighting it.
Broken,
lifeless.
I give up,
you’re my only strength.
Without you
I can’t go on anymore.
Ever again.
My only hope (All the times I’ve tried).
My only peace.
My only joy (To walk away from you).
My only strength.
My only power (I fall into your abounding grace).
My only life.
My only love (And love is where I am).
I can’t run anymore,
I give myself to you.
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry.
In all my bitterness,
I ignored all that’s real and true,
all I need is you.
When night falls on me,
I’ll not close my eyes.
I’m too alive
and you’re too strong.
I can’t lie anymore.
I fall down before you.
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry.
My only hope (All the times I’ve tried).
My only peace.
My only joy (To walk away from you).
My only strength
My only power (I fall into your abounding grace).
My only life.
My only love (And love is where I am).
Constantly ignoring the pain consuming me,
but this time it’s cut too deep.
I’ll never stray again.
My only hope (All the times I’ve tried).
My only peace.
My only joy (To walk away from you).
My only strength.
My only power (I fall into your abounding grace).
My only life.
My only love (And love is where I am).
My only hope (All the times I’ve tried).
My only peace.
My only joy (To walk away from you).
My only strength.
My only power (I fall into your abounding grace).
My only life.
My only love (And love is where I am).
Free fall through our midnight,
This epilogue of our own fable,
Heedless in our slumber,
Floating nescient we,
Free fall through this boundlessness,
This madness,
Of our own making.
Falling isn’t flying,
Floating isn’t infinite.
Come our end suddenly,
All hail our lethargy,
Concede suddenly,
To the quickened dissolution,
Pray we mitigate the ruin,
Calling all to arms and order.
Drifting through this boundlessness,
This madness of our own making.
Sound our dire reveille,
Rouse all from our apathy,
Lest we,
Cease to be.
Stir us from our,
Wanton slumber,
Mitigate our ruin,
Call us all to arms and order.
Sound the dread alarm,
Through our primal body,
Sound the reveille,
To be or not to be.
Rise,
Stay the grand finale,
Stay the reading of our swan song and epilogue.
One drive to stay alive,
It’s elementary,
Muster every fiber,
Mobilize,
Stay alive.
Stir us from our,
Wanton slumber,
Mitigate our ruin,
Call us all to arms and order.
I think I think too much,
I’m a little bit paranoid, I think I’m breaking,
Maybe it’s in my blood,
Got a pain that I can’t avoid, I think I’m breaking down.
Hate every single second, minute, hour, every day,
Person in the mirror, they won’t let me feel a thing,
Keep me focused on my problems, I’m addicted to the pain,
Everybody’s out to get you.
I guess I never noticed how it came creeping in,
My enemy emotion but I can’t sink or swim,
I say I’m feeling hopeless, they give me medicine,
They give me medicine, they give me medicine!
I think I think too much,
I’m a little bit paranoid, I think I’m breaking,
Maybe it’s in my blood,
Got a pain that I can’t avoid, I think I’m breaking.
Down, I think I’m breaking,
Down, I think I’m breaking,
I think I think too much,
I’m a little bit paranoid, I think I’m breaking down.
Lies, every time they ask me I just tell ’em that I’m fine,
Try to hide my demons but they only multiply.
Keep me running from the voices on repeat inside my mind,
Everybody fucking hates you.
I guess I never noticed how it came creeping in,
My enemy emotion but I can’t sink or swim,
I say I’m feeling hopeless but no one’s listening,
But no one’s listening, but no one’s listening!
I think I think too much,
I’m a little bit paranoid, I think I’m breaking,
Maybe it’s in my blood,
Got a pain that I can’t avoid, I think I’m breaking.
Down, I think I’m breaking,
Down, I think I’m breaking,
I think I think too much,
I’m a little bit paranoid, I think I’m breaking down.
I don’t really like myself,
I don’t really like myself,
I don’t really like myself,
I don’t really like myself,
I think I’m breaking down.
Songwriters: Brian Burkheiser / Stephen Menoian / Richard Vanlerberghe / TYLER SMYTH / DAVID PRAMICK
We scan the empty sky, always without success,
We’re lighting signal fires and spelling S.O.S.
We stare at broken clocks, the truth comes twice a day,
While every second just slips away.
Are you going to wait here for a sign to let you know now?
Are you going to sit there paralyzed by what you’ve seen?
Or are you going to finally grip the wheel? I think you know how.
Is this more than you expected it to be?
Don’t wait for a miracle to tumble from the sky,
To part the seas around you or turn water into wine.
Don’t wait for a miracle, the world is passing by,
The walls that all surround you are only in your mind.
The stage is set, and the curtains pulled,
Ready or not, it’s time, on with the show,
Now the crowd has grown impatient,
And the train has left the station,
And the candles you are burning in the dark will fade away.
So what are you waiting for? A sign to let you know now?
Are you gonna sit there paralyzed by what you’ve seen?
Are you going to finally grip the wheel? I think you know how.
Are you gonna throw it all away?
Don’t wait for a miracle to tumble from the sky,
To part the seas around you or turn water into wine.
Don’t wait for a miracle, the world is passing by,
The walls that all surround you are only in your mind.
When the weight we carry breaks us,
We’re tempted to stay down,
But every road to recovery,
Starts at the breakdown.
But we don’t need miracles to tumble from the sky,
To part the seas around us or turn water into wine,
Because we are the miracles, we happen all the time,
We’re not scared of what surrounds us, we’re not waiting for a sign.
We are the miracles,
We are the miracles,
We are the miracles.
I’ve been searching for an exit, but I’m lost inside my head,
Where I spend every waking moment, wishing I was dead.
For a few minutes, get me away from here,
For a few minutes, wipe away my tears.
For I am lost right now, as the ocean deep,
I am low my friend and how my heart does sink,
Yeah I am lost right now, as the ocean deep,
I am low my friend and how my heart does sink.
It’s like there’s cancer in my blood,
It’s like there’s water in my lungs,
And I can’t take another step,
Please tell me I am not undone.
It’s like there’s fire in my skin,
And I’m drowning from within,
I can’t take another breath,
Please tell me I am not undone.
I’ve been searching for an exit, but I’m lost inside my head,
Where I spend every waking moment, wishing this would end.
I can’t take another step, I cannot live inside my mind,
I can’t face another day, I am so fucking tired.
For I am lost right now, as the ocean deep,
I am low my friend and how my heart does sink,
Yeah I am lost right now, as the ocean deep,
I am low my friend and how my heart does sink.
It’s like there’s cancer in my blood,
it’s like there’s water in my lungs,
And I can’t take another step,
Please tell me I am not undone.
It’s like there’s fire in my skin,
And I’m drowning from within,
I can’t take another breath,
Please tell me I am not undone.
I’ve been searching for an exit, but I’m lost inside my head,
Where I spend every waking moment, wishing I was dead.
I’ll take another step for you,
I’ll shed my tears until I drown, or until I am underground.
I’ll take another breath for you,
Will you still be there when I’m home, out from the great unknown?
It’s like there’s cancer in my blood,
It’s like there’s water in my lungs,
And I can’t take another step,
Please tell me I am not undone.
It’s like there’s fire in my skin,
And I’m drowning from within,
I can’t take another breath,
Please tell me I am not undone.